I have been shocked by my own culture

I dunno how to put this into word............ BRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrr
rase macam kene penyepak kat kepale and then baru sedar, Is that what I have been doing with all the precious time GOD gave me?............. BRRRRRRrrrRRRrRRrRRRRrRrRR